The Storm is Coming :D

Being angry that other people don’t care about how I feel, thinking that they’re selfish, when in reality i’m the one being selfish… Sigh… trying to be more christian like is so hard… To care about others… To be kind… ROAR!

For the sake of keeping the reader confused i’m not gonna use real names.

I found myself in front of my church with Jack, this kid from school i’ve always envied. Then this girl I’ve been crushing on for years, Sarah, came over to where I was sitting. As I tried to muster up the courage to say something to her, Jack pulls out a cigg and asked me if I want one. I immediately reply to his offer with “no.” But Sarah said “I would like one” right after my response. I then took my response back and asked for a cigg. Then I hear behind me “Hae Won don’t.” I turned around and I saw my friend Mark, whom I knew has had an on and off addiction to cigarettes. Out of anger from him telling me not to I put the cigarette in front of his face and I offered it to him. He had a very shocked look on his face but it quickly changed to a serious one and he said “no thanks.” After giving the cigarette a few puffs I knew I didn’t like it. Then I look up at Sarah to see that she’s smoking as if she was a regular smoker. Sarah then told Jack, “These Ciggs arn’t as strong as the ones I got at home.” She finishes her cigarette and grabs another one from Jack’s box. I’ve always smelled smoke off of Sarah during the very few times i’ve talked to her, but I always thought to myself that she would never smoke, now I knew for sure that she was a regular smoker. I said to Sarah, “Sarah you should stop.” She lashed back with “maybe you should go away.”  So I said “fine,” and I got up to leave. Right when I turned around my friend Smith gets up and says “Wait Sarah… Hae Won likes you know.” I stare at him with a death glare, but I wasn’t very mad at him. I reply to Smith’s sudden announcement with “she already knows Smith…” And I turn around to look at Sarah and she looks at me and says, “Yea, I already knew.” At that moment all these feelings started rushing towards me, depression, anger, etc. Instead of saying anything I just walked away… the weird thing is that for the rest of my dream I still felt those feelings when usually I forget everything that has occured as my dream progresses… Why is this part of my dream so vivid and fresh in my head?